11.45pm - Random ramblings!
The last few months have really flown past me in a flash, I can't believe it is December already and so so so so long since I last blogged. I am deeply sorry about that but as you know, last year I failed my first year of Uni and this year I vowed to take it a lot more seriously. So far, I am doing excellently, much improved on last years performance but have had to put in a lot of time and effort.
Need a little vent I'm afraid here goes: I am feeling major Burn Out to be honest. I feel exhausted. Diabetes has totally kicked my ass and everything is just such a huge mission now. I guess I'm just run down but it's hard all this keeping myself positive when I feel tired at the end of the day. In the morning I will feel differently, all keen and spritely as normal but right now I'm wiped out. My brain wants to go but my body says no, lol.
I don't think I have much news but I'll just start blogging and see what happens. I've been pretty busy lately not just at uni but socially too. I seem to have a group of really lovely friends. David, Vicky, Steve, Kev, Clare, Talan, Rob, Anne, Jonny, Peter, Laura etc etc. Here is how it goes:
Mondays I have maths but not until lunch so I get a much needed lie in and the night off, Tuesdays I have a day off but the last 3 have been spent doing maths in the Chaplaincy, tuesday nights are Christian Union if I can make it, Wednesday is supposed to be a day off too but the last 2 have been spent doing maths with Tom in the chappers, every other Wednesday I go to Xalt when I know someone that will be there, Thursday is my super busy day lately, maths lectures and maths with Tom in the chappers, Christianity Explored in the evening, Friday I go to Bible brunch if I can get up early enough then get the afternoon off. Saturdays I do all my house work and washing late into the evening, mumsie comes over on Sunday for dinner.
The rest of the time I'm catching up on Facebook, except this week I went to Church on Sunday night. I'm trying to make myself go into uni every day for as long as I can manage so that I really appreciate my time off and am ready for the increase in subject and difficulty after Christmas that threw me last year. I was doing just fine until the second half of the year when I didn't understand a word when I had missed lectures.
I haven't had chance to get on here to blog but I have been reading Hollydaze! I always read the email one when I get my uni emails and comment if I get chance to go on blogspot at the same time which alas is not as often as I would like. My plan of action for this year was just to nail maths get it out of the way so that I don't have to go to maths after christmas. I have one more test to do and then I am done so the plan is to get it done before I go on holiday. Oh! my holiday I haven't really told you about that yet, I got asked to go to visit my family over in Abu Dhabi! Aren't they lovely? I was so so grateful! I am going on 30th December with my Nan and staying there until 28th January. I can't wait!
Anyway, since I passed Bio 005 and Chem 005 I only had to do maths this term (semester?) but I didn't pass Bio 006, Chem 006, Stats or Maths for the second part of the year so after Christmas I am back to a whole timetable after only having maths right now. If I can reduce it to Bio, Chem and Stats then I might have a chance of completing this year and getting onto my actual degree which will be a lot more fun because it's a subject I'm actually interested in. I was very close to passing bio and chem last year so fingers crossed. I'm hoping the work I did last year will count towards my final mark but I have yet to confirm that with my tutor Dave Harwood.
I have an enabler this year called Tom who has made the hugest change in my whole uni experience. I no longer have any stress when I go to a lecture. He walks me to my lectures and sits through them with me then spends hours on end one to one patiently explaining the simplest of things that I just don't get over and over. Bless him. Maths is like a foreign language to me apparently I have something called Dyscalculus? (I am guessing you know what that is.) Perhaps I rely on him a bit too much? Anyway we sort of just got on so well right from the start that I feel like I have known him forever and I don't know how I managed anything last year. While I am on holiday he might even be sitting through all my lectures note taking for me for when I get back home! A combination of Tom and feeling so very much at home in the chappers is making uni a real pleasure.
I chatted with Alysha tonight for the first time in years. It was lovely. Really reminded me of the good old days of chatting with her, Vicki, Becca and Angel all the time instead of once in a while. We both really miss those days, it was nice to catch up. She asked me if I ever talk to you and I said not exactly, lol. I said that we read and comment on eachothers blogs but that I still feel the same as I did when we chatted for hours on the phone every day. Perhaps I will get the opportunity to call you over the christmas? I will try my best. I'd love to come and visit you and meet Holly. Angel has invited me to go to visit her at Easter or what you call Spring Break. I am hoping to have enough money to do that. I talk to Angel on Facebook all the time by the way, she is as lovely as ever :) I haven't heard from Becca in nearly 3 years now I think. Have you?
I'm sorry to say that I started smoking again recently after having given up for over 11 months and now I am going through the giving up process again. It's such a difficult thing to do, I can't believe I was stupid enough to put myself through it twice. I have to take tablets that make me feel like I have morning sickness twice a day. They stop me from having cravings. Well they work like a treat during the day, I don't smoke at all but evenings I can't kick it just yet. It's all just habit breaking, I'll get there again. I'm not taking tobacco with me abroad so that will be the end of it.
I can't wait to get in the sun I have missed it so much. It's freezing cold and always raining here in Plymouth at the moment. It is the worst time of the year weather-wise, October - April really. We have 2 months sun usually, 3 if we are lucky. The cold isn't so depressing it's the constant year-long rain.
It was Sams third birthday yesterday. It was fun we had a birthday tea and he loved his presents. He was in a great mood and a good time was had by all. He is so big now and just so handsome and gorgeously cute!
Hope your knee is better now by the way!
It's late now so I'm going to get going. I promise to be on facebook but I will get on here whenever I can, sorry. Finish uni 21st not going on holiday until 30th so I'll try and get on then again. xxxxxx
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It is so wonderful to hear an update from you. I saw on face book that you were going to Abu Daubi but I didn;t realize for how long, it will be a lovely trip, and it will give you a chance to get over your current feeling of "burn out" I kow working so hard can really get you down and tired, but you have to keep at it, you have come so far and I am so proud of you. your plan sounds lovely and I hope you finish maths this semester, so you won't have to do it next term. I looved up Dyscalculus and read that it was like Dyslexia with numbers, there is some interesting information on it related to self esteem and positive thinking helping you understand math better, and it seems like perhaps tom's support is helping to add that confidence for you, he sounds lovely. Will he be there to help you next term with your Bio and Chem? It sounds lik eyou have a very busy schedule, but your social calander is as busy as your class one it seems, so its some fun and play mixed in there :-)
I am leaving tomorrow the 13th for Florida and I will be there until the 8th so about 25 days, a long break for me too. well not so much a break, but a change in routine and some help from the grandparents. I am looking forward to the large family christmas and the triop, but not the weather, my sister says it is hot and it is predicted to be 81 on monday when I arrive. It is cold and rainy here, it makes me want to stay in, but I like it better then sweaty and hot.
I have been packing for three days and I can;t keep my suitcase under 50 lbs, and I had to add a second to fit everything. I am a facebook friend with Alyshia but we haven't talked on there yet. I think Angel is mad at me or dissapointed maybe. I tried really hard to stay in touch with her for a while, but then I was home with the baby for 6 months and she got married and was busy with Juan, and then I tried to go back to work, so I was on the computer again, but super stressed and busy and had missed so much, and then she started taking classes and volunteering and getting busy, it seems like we just drifted apart. She never blogs or updates on facebook, so I feel like I have no idea what s going on in her life. I blog every single day, so everyone knows exactly what I am doing all the time and how busy I am with the baby, goah, toddler now.
I saw the pics from Sams Birthday, he is such a sweetie! I am glad you all had such a lovely time. It goes by so fast. I have been shopping on ebay lately looking for stuff for Holly and one of the sellers was named Disco lemonade and it made me think of Becca, but I haven't talked to her in longer then you have. I did actually have a quick email chat with Jonah recently, or well I accediently emailed him a virus, he responded, I emailed back, but then didn't hear from him. Just as well. I have been in touch with so many lovely friends from High School on face book which is fun, I guess I better go to bed too now. I will chat with you soon I hope.
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