I've had a horrible couple of days. The week started off well, Monday I went to my lectures and Tuesday too. Then it all went horribly wrong. I am failing chemistry now where I wasn't before as I have missed two labs this week therefore two reports which make my average pants. I will let you know what my tutor says.


The reason was Jynx. He became critically ill Tuesday night and had to be rushed to the emergency vets. I only got him back (still not well but better) this morning Thursday. I rushed into Uni this afternoon when I really should've stayed with Jynx to try to make up but I doubt it will help much. I had a great afternoon in the end chatting in the chaplaincy and playing cards with Peter and Stephen. I really needed to have some down time having been on edge for more than 48 hours.

I stayed for christianity explored tonight as usual because I didn't want to let anyone down especially since it's now my job to do Amy's job since she quit. My mind really wasn't in it though. I think I did a good job of hiding my misery. We had wonderful home made soup, carrot and swede I believe with baguette peices and quiche. We had gorgeous toffee cheesecake and blackcurrant cheesecake. I should have been having fun as we even started Discipleship Explored which I have been eagerly awaiting.

My eyes were killing me because I forgot my glasses and was so sleep deprived. I am scared to sleep incase he gets worse but I'm so tired that I have to. Now I don't know what to do in the morning, stay home to keep an eye on poorly Jynx because it's a potentially life threatening illness and possibly fail or go into Uni and not concentrate but get my name on the register and possibly have no Jynx to come home to. Obviously I am staying home I'd hate myself if I wasn't here to take him to the vets. Sigh

Jynx had a urinary blockage by the way incase you wondered. He's still not quite right after three anasthetics and cathaters, the vets kept telling me to prepare for the worst and he could die it was horrible. If I had any doubts before, now I know I couldn't part with Jynx. He has to have two different tablets twice a day and some liquid pain relief in his food too. I hope he will be ok.

I'll write more later I'm going to try and get some sleep with my fingers crossed that Jynx will be well enough for me to go Uni in the morning, Biology lab and Stats tomorrow. Oh I got my essay back, the one I had not referenced, hadn't finnished and I got a C which is great considering and a report that I got a pass on for Biology too so it's only Chemistry I have the problem with now. I am passing Maths, Stats, Biology and Biology Lab. Not sure about study skills or Chemistry but I'm definitely failing Chemistry lab at the moment. I can keep my facebook up to date with my mobile so will be doing that from now on while at Uni.

Love n' hugs
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I'm such a bad blogger, I have a whole week to write about I'm so sorry about that. Ok here goes, Monday was really fun even though I had stats first thing in the morning. Afterwards I was in the chaplaincy with Stephen and Vicky. We had such a laugh messing about with my laptop and chatting. Monday I got an early night as it was a long day. Tuesday morning I don't have classes so I went and chilled in the chaplaincy again so at least I'm on campus. Stephen was in again and I spent most of the day chatting and messing about.


Tuesday night was excellent, the first time I have attended Christian Union. Loads of people I know were there so it wasn't too scarey (new places new people) Talan came over to greet me as soon as I got there and then Stephen so I was at ease quite quickly. The scarey part was getting in the building in the first place. I sat next to Isabel who I know from Dartmoor, Jenny, Peter and Amy from Christianity explored were also there. I recognised others from the chaplaincy and the free meals back in September. We sang hymns and had a guest speaker followed by more hymns it was fun.

Wednesday is my day off from Uni I have no classes so in the morning I chilled at home. About lunch time I went into the chaplaincy and met up with Vicky.

I wrote all of the above this morning and have been trying desperately all day to remember what it was that I did on Wednesday or Wednesday evening and I can't. I know that some time this week Vicky and I went shopping in town one afternoon maybe it was then. Sorry!

Thursday was pretty much like Tuesday lol I remember a lot of time in the chaplaincy, Stephen and Vicky and I having a laugh. Glen was there too and he is hilarious. I gave them all nicknames, Stephenage, Vicarage and Glen Fiddick, ha ha. We did have very good lectures though Biology of course, very interesting. It was about respiration and gaseous exchange in animals. Thursday evening was good. For christianity explored we watched a film called The Ressurection. It was a really good film, from the soldier who witnessed Jesus' death and ressurection very well acted. Dinner was sausage caserole. David's wife Nicola once again an excellent cook. Sadly Amy resigned too this was her last night, more later.

Friday Vicky and I were in the chaplaincy in the morning. Mark came in and we chatted to him until lunch. We grabbed sandwhiches and coffee, my sarnie was bacon, chicken and stilton with salad. We had stats lectures in the afternoon which were mind-numbingly, paint-dryingly, eye stabbingly boring!!!! I ran out of the lecture theatre and all I could think of was a nice cold Fosters. Vicky, Marc and I went to the Student Union. I only wanted the one pint I just craved it though. After my pint I went to Paul and Carlys leaving Marc and Vicky in the S.U. which was loads of fun. It was lovely to see them after such a long time. Ben's writing is really good he is growing up so quickly. They fed me which was unexpected and welcome and I stayed so late I had to get a taxi home.

I've just remembered a little, we saw Kate Fletcher on Wednesday we chatted with her for some time and Amy resigned from the chaplaincy sadly that day too to go back home and work with children instead of doing her degree in nursing. Fair play I say it's great she knows what she wants to do I wish I had her courage and conviction I really admire her.

Yesterday, saturday I slept in as long as possible really savouring my comfy bed. When I finally dragged myself up I got washed and dressed and went mums. We went for a walk all around Devonport Park. It was beautiful. We hardly ever remember to enjoy our surroundings and I have felt very cooped up this week lots of walls not enough nature and fresh air. We saw squirrels and birds galore it was sunny too even though it was freezing.

After our walk mum and I had fish and chips. I stayed at mums (on facebook on my laptop) until about 10.20pm then came home. I had an early night I watched Die Hard 4.0 (I can't believe noone told me how fabulous that film is) on my laptop in bed. I stayed in bed as long as possible again today eventually getting up to gone-off milk. I so didn't feel like going to the shop for milk but had to when the tea craving became unbearable.

I hoovered and did my washing, washed the dishes, cleaned the bathroom, downloaded There, chatted to Mum, loads of people actually too many to list. I pretty much have been on facebook all week getting totally hooked. I chatted with Mark about Seth someone folky some time this week and I found all my friends from school I had lost contact with. I'm really enjoying catching up and finding out who is married, who's got kids, who married who, that's wierd. People I would never have imagined to be a good couple and yet are. People who made fun of me for being fat are now overweight themselves, things like that. People seem to remember really wierd things that I had forgotten. Great to see Angel !!!!

I've really enjoyed being part of a little community. This week though I will be concentrating on my work a bit more so I should think I will be online less. Mum came to get me at about 4pm and we went for a drive while the roast potatoes cooked. We went to Devils Point which is a little beachy type coastal place where my mum used to take us as children not far from where we live now. I've posted pics of Devonport Park and Devils Point. I took them Vicki style leaving no stone unphotographed ;-)

This evening I have just chilled at home I wrote this blog and uploaded pics now I am off to bed, got stats at 9am - groan!! Love to all xxxxxxxx

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Sunday 18th January 2009

I can't believe I haven't written in here since Wednesday after promising to be more up to date - sorry. Thursday morning early I had a biology lecture it was a great one too, all about the Krebs cycle and cell respiration, brilliant stuff. I went to the Chaplaincy straight after my first lecture to see David. When I arrived he was just going over to the Uni shop to get the papers and invited me along.
When we got back I set up my laptop on the table. Tallon was in playing the guitar. He is fab, he plays all my favourite stuff Vicki you would love it I wish you could hear him.

Vicky was not in she had sent me a text saying she was ill but I wasn't convinced I was sure she was depressed about Manny so I persuaded her to come into Uni and sit with me in the Chaplaincy. She came in and I managed to cheer her right up, we looked at Monty Python clips on You Tube on my laptop. We were giggling so badly.

We had another lecture in the afternoon that followed on from the one we had this morning explaining in greater detail the same principles. I really enjoyed this lecture a lot. This is the only lecture I enjoy actually and it's only 2 hours a week out of my time. I hate the other classes soooooo much :-( biology keeps me going though because I love it so and I need this course for my entry onto my biology degree. Sigh.

After our lecture it was back to the chaplaincy where Vicky and I continued our giggling watching YouTube clips. I also installed itunes and was pissed off to see I might lose all my files on my ipod. Today I did lose most of them and that was one thing out of many many things that pissed me off today and last night. More of that later.

Our last christianity explored session was before christmas so we weren't sure if we were going to continue, I don't remember if I wrote about that session but David and Amy fell out a bit that time so none of us were sure if the sessions would continue after that. Anyway they have continued and will be continued for another 8 weeks at least - yay! We had jacket potatoes and something new and very very nice - Boston Beans. I have never had this before and absolutely loved it, very impressed. David's wife is a superb cook. Oh I met her Thursday too in the morning she came into the Chaplaincy to bring in the beans, she is a lovely person very sweet.

After the meal we watched a video called "Why do we suffer?" then we chatted about it for a little while after. It was very thought provoking. I got home about 9pm totally exhausted after such a long day. I hadn't slept well with the cats fighting and I had got the 8am bus so I fell asleep almost as soon as I was home which is why I didn't blog. Friday morning I met Vicky in the Chaplaincy, I had got into Uni late as I had over slept (lovely to finally get some sleep at last Jynx in bathroom) so I had missed Bible brunch which I was sad about. Usually we have John but Amy was doing it this time as a one off she had put a lot of effort into it too, bought some snacks, prepared, I felt very bad but had been so tired. Tallon was the only one there. Sigh.

Vicky and I were supposed to go to statistics but neither of wanted to and in the end we didn't. It was an optional tutorial and we decided we had understood everything ok in the lecture on Monday so we went shopping instead. Vicky got a warm coat for Dartmoor and I got Gortex base layer t-shirts for mum and I. I also picked up a small black and pink backpack, heat pads for hands and a compass - thermometer.

For Vickys birthday we went to Buffet City. The food was utterly gorgeous as ever. I have pics but can't upload them, another thing that pissed me off today more later. After buffet city we met up with Lisa in the Voodoo Lounge our usual Friday haunt. Dave was also there (not to be confused with David from the Chaplaincy or David Harwood my tutor) a guy on my course a mutual friend of mine and Allans and has Jynx's brother Jeff, bought him for his girlfriend for Christmas so sweet. We had a few pints then I left in a taxi when Lisas friend Emma arrived. I think Vicky probably left very soon after and Lisa had a night out with Emma all planned.

Saturday morning and the weather was perfect. Sunny but still cold and crisp. I put on my blister saver socks, then my hiking socks, then my base t-shirt my fleece and my double layer trousers. Dartmoor is freezing all year but especially cruel in the winter. I packed all my gear, flask of tea, salad sarnies and sesame snaps for mum and I, my hip flask of vodka (also bought on friday I forgot), my hat, gloves, scarf and asthma inhalers. I crucially forgot my walking poles though and the inside fleece liner of my jacket like a dumb ass. Monty in the bathroom I met mum outside mine and we got the bus to Uni.

Once there it was the normal international bunch all milling around the mini bus. Trevor and his dog Bea were there as usual and David of course but this time we had Jonny there too with his two children Joseph and Samuel who looked a lot like our Samuel, very cute kids. I think Joseph was about 9 maybe and Samuel 6. There were a lot of people from Iran this time and they were lovely, very talkative and attentive. One lady really liked my mum walking nearly half the walk with us. We had a fabulous walk, mum did so well I was very impressed. I never thought she would ever make it up a place called Sheepstor it was such a steep hill with such a cold wind. Three quarters of the way up she nearly gave in despite my encouragement but David is such a sweety, he dropped back and helped my mum to calm right down and got her to the top. The rest of the walk was down the hill then flat around the reservoir and she was soooo pleased with herself that she had made it. Bless.

A scramble over rocks and we were down the other side of Sheepstor. David led the way and Trevor dropped back. We were on some pretty rough ground and some boggy ground before we got to the road and I got my foot emerged in mud, I sank both feet, couldn't move, toppled forward and fell face first into the mud. It was so humiliating. You've been framed would have definitely paid me for that. After a bit of a giggle we were on the road and the Iranian lady chatted with my mum until we got back to the minibus.

Back in Plymouth mum and I were naughty and went to Fat Mammas which is the only Burger shop worth going to. Their food is divine. Mum and I both had beer-battered fries and I had a swiss burger, sauted mushrooms, swiss cheese and salad. It was all wonderful. We shopped a bit then went home. Last night I wrote an email to Angel after I finally noticed I had an email from her. It took some time. I then dragged an old tumble dryer out of my cupboard which I haven't used and has been in there for at least two years. When I turned it on it set on fire. Smoke billowed out of my kitchen and I couldn't see how to get to where it was coming from which was inside the drum I think.

I panicked and flew around the flat looking for inspiration. I didn't find any so threw a cup of water in the drum and flicked the tumble dryer on to spin the drum. It worked the fire was out then the really smelly smoke rose - yuk. I was pretty shook up. This upset Jynx who then went to pee on the sofa right in front of me!!!!! I was horrified and grabbed him off the sofa, he actually then started to pee, I grabbed him and went to take him into the bathroom and from behind Monty savaged me!

When I say savaged I really mean it I was in agony and blood poured from my leg all down my leg, over my socks and on the carpet for ages. I wrestled him into the cat basket and shut the door on Jynx in the bathroom. My leg was badly hurt. I don't know what had got into Monty I guess I must have scared him. I was in agony. His teeth had sunk right into my calf muscle. I can't show you the pics because I can't upload them from my phone, I don't know why but the Nokia programme or the USB cable is playing up. I have buffet city pics, Dartmoor and my leg pics. I cleaned my wounds for ages until the blood stopped by which time the shock had worn off and I was tired. I applied antiseptic cream and dressings then went to sleep to Scrubs season 1 on my laptop in bed.

This morning I didn't want to get up at all. I was supposed to be going to church today but couldn't go (new places, people) anyways I went in town instead. I bought a laminated map of Dartmoor incase mum and I want to go more often (I hope so) and a much bigger flask as now mum comes too I got a lot less tea, lol. I bought an electric water pick for my teeth and lots of dressing stuff, antiseptic wipes, dressing pads and tape. I bought some gifts for a few friends in Hotel Chocolate, peeked at the new stuff in build-a bear then I sat and had a stupidly huge caramel flavoured Latte which was heavenly before getting a bus to mums.

At mums I tried in vain to save all my ipod files. I got the music onto cd's but couldn't get my films or programmes onto dvd's so I lost Prison Break season 3 and 4, GBH seasons 1-3, Iron Man, Phone Jacker season 1 and Dirty Sanchez. All I have is my music :-( This deeply upset me and then it all came flooding out. I installed mums ipod and lost all her files too so then I was snappy with mum until I cried and moaned that the cats and my flat are getting me down. Mumsie to the rescue we came to my flat and mum helped me start to clean it up. We tidied and organised my flat. The whole flat needs spring cleaning and I can't do it all by myself. I've been too stressed out at home with the cats I have put the cleaning off having to constantly babysit the cats takes it's toll.

After such a crappy day, this evening after mum left I've just been reading and blogging on here. It's now nearly 2am and I have a 9am statistics lecture so I am off to bed. Jynx is in the bathroom tonight. My leg is so sore, stiff and swolen with horrible black scabs :-(
Tomorrow is Blue Monday but it can't get worse than today, surely??

The new Jason Miraz album is out tomorrow and it is only £4, rude not to buy. It's my worse day subject wise though, stats and maths - kill me now!

Wednesday 14th January 2009

I am currently sitting in MY living room not my mums on MY new laptop on MY broadband noone elses - WOOOT! Couldn't wait for the free laptop, I decided I could sell the free one if I ever get it and I need to be online now so I can complete work at home plus I want to have more time online. Needless to say I'm in a great mood, buzzing in fact, life is good!
Another good bit of news I am not failing my course in any way. My coursework overall was good enough for me to pass without going to the exam so I am ok. Not even in the red. We have to get over 40 to pass and I am currently on 48. Ok it's not great I know but on the plus side I thought I might have already failed when in fact I am doing fine just need to work a bit harder on future assignments to stay above water. Actually, Vicky who has done all assignments (I have missed 5 so have 5 zero marks aswell as the zero mark for the exam) and went to the exam is on 49 so I am doing ok, worrying for nothing.
I can't think of any barriers left now so it's full steam ahead. I can research my assignments, find help online, log into the portal (that's like your blackboard I think Vicki) check my mail and keep up to date with timetable changes. It has made such a difference already. I have signed up for New Scientist online and get a chemistry fact daily, lol.
I will be able to keep more up to date with this blog too I hope. It's hard on the eyes reading so much at once I am getting back into the swing of typing too, hehe. I'm rusty and not used to laptop keyboards. I have downloaded google talk, aim, skype and bought loads of games. I got all The Sims 2 expansions second hand and I bought Spore. I also got World of Warcraft but haven't got that installed yet and a few more like Sim City 4, Theme park world etc. I've got my phone software installed too so I can put photo's on still and I've got my Ipod installed. Still loads left to setup and windows Vista to get used to but it's all good.
Today I went in town with my mum. We got some warm clothes for Dartmoor, mumsie is coming with us this saturday. We ate jacket potatoes as part of our new diet when normally we would get a pasty. I bought some foundation make-up and mum a hair dye. After that I had a medical assessment for the benefits agency. Mum went to look after Sam and I met Katie in town. I got her a kitten for Christmas at her request then Saleh has made her sell it so with the money I got back I bought Katie her replacements today. We did well with the bargain hunting. She got a pair of black ankle boots that are pointy with heals and posh, some more casual boots sandy colour lace-ups and the exact same sandy ones for Sam then we went to Game and I bought her the three Harry Potter games and a CSI game for the pc.
Monday was the first day back at Uni after christmas and it was such a shock to the system! Things that trigger my anxiety attacks include new places, new people and break in my routine so 9am we were in a new lecture theatre with a new tutor and a new subject - Statistics. I had got to sleep finally at 5.20am after being too anxious to sleep then got up at 7am to get the 8am bus. It was a stressful morning of knots in my stomach. It was lovely to see all my friends again though, Vicky, Lisa, Marc and Manny in particular and it soon became ok asking how their christmases went and shaking everyones hand happy new year. It was lovely to see David and all the Chaplaincy people again too. I have missed them all so much. David was saying that we have only known everyone since september, it's hard to believe I have known them so little time it seems much longer as they are such good friends already.
After Uni at 2pm I met mum and Pat in town for coffee. I stopped into the christian bookshop and bought myself a beautiful new Bible as my treat for giving up smoking. I thought as it was expensive it would remind me how much money I am saving and the new path in life I am on too, making my life better.
It will be a year on 2nd February since my dad died and he is still very much in my thoughts and I still miss him so very much it's difficult to stay possitive sometimes. Christmas was harder than I thought it would be even down to buying christmas cards I found myself looking in the dad section out of habit and came out of the shop in tears. It seems that so many programmes on tv feature someone losing someone I burst into tears still every time I am reminded. Time is supposed to heal right? I look forward to feeling better.
I went a bit off topic there sorry. I bought the leaders edition of Discipleship Explored which is the follow on from Christianity Explored the course we have just finished for David to have a look at. I think we will be doing the course on Thursdays still. I also bought a silver bookmark and little gold edged sticky tabs for the pages of my bible showing each seperate book like subject dividers. It took me about five hours to stick them all in and I was up until 6am doing it as I couldn't leave it unfinished. With going off topic I forgot to mention that mum and I went to buy my laptop from PC World Monday evening after town. Well actually I got it next door in Currys as it was £200 cheaper same spec. Afterwards I stayed at mums until about 11am then went home and did the bible tabs.
Yesterday, Tuesday morning I had no lectures and slept until 12 noon. I had a chemistry lecture at 1pm and then another at 2pm. It was no fun having no break inbetween lessons. Usually we have one lecture at a time then a break but they merged. Lisa was absent again and since she is in the red and failing I am very worried about her I hope she can buck up a bit. She was in early and all on monday it's a shame especially since she already did this course last year, this is her last chance she won't be able to do it again next year.
Vicky and I sat in the chaplaincy after our lecture and had coffee. Roger and Laura were there so it was nice to see them. Roger has a new post, he will be Vicar of another church up the line, good for him sad for us. Just as we were leaving Manny called Vicky to tell her he wasn't coming over to her halls to see her and she got quite angry with him. He said it was becuase his mum didn't want him to and she was very annoyed that he didn't stick up to her.
I tried to calm her down and explain that as his mum is living with him he has to consider her and his culture is such that they do as their mothers said. Anyway, he called me in the end after Vicky hung up on him and shouted at him a lot about getting a back bone and doing as he pleased and said that his mum didn't want to babysit his teenage sons, his mum is catholic and had been moaning that they weren't married and he said that he had been dissapointed with his mark this term and wants to study more.
I relayed the message and Vicky was heartbroken at being dumped through her friend and I agree it was a bit low. He should have told her himself not through me. It went from not coming over because his mum said he shouldn't to them breaking up. She called me today and said she had seen Manny parked outside her halls but she isn't talking to him and he drove off. I don't know if I understood it right but I think they have broken up. Tomorrow is going to be so very awkward.
Tomorrow we have a biology lecture in the morning then a statistics tutorial session followed by chemistry lab from 2pm - 5pm. It's already past midnight and I#m not sleepy at all.
The cats were getting on this evening. They sat together and Monty licked Jynx's face which was progress then Monty went for Jynx later and is now still trying to stalk and attack him, I have Jynx in protective custody on my lap. Poor Jynx he has done nothing and doesn't even fight back. I phoned the local animal shelters and there is no room for either of the cats. One even had a waiting list of 140 cats! No way either of my cats are going to stay in a shelter for months and months, not being bought and cooped up so they will just have to learn to get along. The vet said that following the operation, after three weeks all the hormones should have cleared from their bodies so Monty has three weeks grace before I actively seek a new home for him.
Tomorrow evening after lab Lisa, Vicky and I are supposed to be going to the pub for a few drinks and then Vicky and I might go bowling. It is her birthday on Saturday but we have Dartmoor so we can't really go out Friday night as we will be too tired to walk and then Saturday we might be tired from walking so we are still trying to figure something out to do. The other problem is me and Lisa both being on a diet. Normally we would go Pizza Hut, Buffet City or KFC to celebrate I guess I can exercise more later and be a good friend. I expect we will go wherever she wants to go. Lisa might not go.
I haven't got around to joining the gym yet (new places, new people) but I plan to. It's just £46 pound for the whole year when most charge nearly that for a month so it's rude not to take advantage. It's the Uni gym newly built and just opened September. The public have to pay £156 a year to use it so I should use it while I can. I want to be much fitter for field trips I will need to do on my degree.
Ok I think I have written quite enough for now I keep forgetting I can get back on any time I like now, lol. I'm off to try and force myself to sleep.
Love and hugs!!!
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Ok I don't have much time (I spent all of my allotted online time reading Holly's blog, lol) mum is itching to get back on the pc so just a quick note.
It was great to see all of your pictures Vicki lovely to see Heather and Ashley still together and omg they have a child? Is Heather the actual mom? Great to see Ruth and your grandma she is so sweet. I was saying to my mum the other day I was sad not to see Ruth or grandma so that was nice to know they are both ok. I was thinking about you and all your family over Christmas I am so glad you all had a good time together. Kevin has rock band it is fun!
Christmas for us wasn't as good as it could have been but that's a long story and I don't wanna bitch about it I just wanna move on and focus on the good. I had lovely presents and a lovely dinner. New Years was a lot of fun I did Katies sound she had a gig in a pub called The Fellowship Arms. She sang really beautifully and got £150 so we then spent some of that getting drunk and being merry, lol. Mum was at home with Sam. I am not back to Uni until 12th (I also get my next bursary same day - wooot!) and I am dying to get back too. Some pics:
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My new years resolutions: One is I am getting rid of my cats.
It was a hard decision but they have to go. Since I gave up smoking (on Sunday this week it's seven weeks since my last cigarette) I have a lot more money and I am thinking I will have even more money if I didn't have the expense of the cats. Also, they have started to fight as they are older now and both boys. The other thing is field trips and holidays. I will have enough money to go on holiday twice this summer, my family have invited me to Dubai and I would like to be able to go and I can't jet off here and there when I have cats to worry about. No one wants to look after them and 2 or 3 weeks is a long time to ask someone to look after them. With the fighting I am having to keep them cooped up in seperate rooms at night so that I can get some sleep it's no good for any of us. I will miss them but my career and their welfare comes first.
When I don't have the cats I will only have the expense of food and electric so life should be better. Apart from the fact the flat will smell better without the litter trays it will also be fur free and I can open thne kitchen without worrying about paw prints on my worktops. It probably sounds like I am justifying it to myself as well as you but I really don't want to get rid of them I just think I should.
Anyway, I have been invited to Dubai this summer which I am really excited about, I can't wait. I have started saving for my flight and hopefully mum will come too. More about that nearer the time.
Although I am not back to Uni until 12th I am going in all this week anyway because the Chaplaincy will be open, I'll go in and help out with the churchy stuff all week, get back into the routine of going in campus, sort out my emails and visit the disability department about my laptop I am supposed to be getting.
I hate having the money to go buy it myself and waiting because I am entitled to a free one. If I bought my own I could be online whenever I want I could blog etc every day but free is better so I will wait. I am also going in to see my main tutor, Dr.David Harwood. He is the person in charge of my whole course and I am hoping if I talk to him about my health problems I might be able to claim extenuating circumstances.
If I can re-take that exam in the summer I could continue my course and that would be the only thing missing from my record. If he doesn't let me I will have to leave the course now and restart it again in September which I don't mind at all. I can get better grades second time around and by then I will definitely have my laptop by then making everything more easy. I have to check my Uni emails and type up work to hand in and print stuff all at mums at the moment because the library freaks me out so having that laptop will greatly improve my work I think. Fingers crossed I will be ok to continue now and retake the exam in the summer.
The other new years resolution is to lose weight.
I am doing very badly at that so far, November and December have been such bad months weight wise. I gave up smoking on 16th November and I have put on probably close to two stone. I have been eating crisps, chocolate, nuts etc for something to do. Also, with all this money I have been lazy and going to Pizza Hut and Buffet City, then there was Christmas and all that food still left to eat. I've eaten crisps, chocolate, nuts and sweets just today!
In Uni they have a brand new gym which is only £42 for students for the whole year so I'm going to join that on 12th January. If I can go just once a week it will be an improvement. I am hoping to go most days after Uni rather than go home to a cat free house and just watch tv. That's the other thing, since I got my tv I have been out a lot less and eating in front of the tv is so easy, esecially when it's cold.
I'm babysitting my Uncle Andys two kids tonight so I gotta go.
Vicki, let me know what you think of me coming to visit you this year maybe for a week, spring or summer break. I'd love to meet Holly :-)
New year, new me, free me!